Help!

I feel like I'm slacking.

It started out all well and good but next thing I know, one thing went wrong.
Then another...and another.
Two weeks into it and I feel like I'm gonna crash soon.
And I'm scared.

I know the right things to do. I know what I need to stop doing.
I even know how I to do what I should.
But I cant.

Not because I am unable to, but because I've got no drive to do it.
Seriously, I know why I should do the right thing, I've met a lot of scape goats.
But the urge still doesnt come.

Why would anyone see smoke and run towards it?
Why would anyone hear of thieves and leave their doors open?
Why would anyone close their eyes to cross a road?

Cant relate?
Why would I see what's happening and still push blindly ahead?


I need a change, and I need one fast.
'Til then, so help me God

defeated honey
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Dont wanna be right

I hate being right.

OK not really, but sometimes I just can't afford to be right, I don't want to be! And those are the times I tend to be right... to the letter.

So now that I'm right, what should I do about it?
That's the question.
Since I thought of this before it happened, I should have a plan right?...wrong!
I don't. And since I don't have a plan, I wing it, and I mess up a little.

It doesn't seem to matter. They don't seem to notice, or maybe they just don't care.
That's fine, this too will pass, wont it?
But with every time I'm right, its like a stake to this,this...whatever the hell this is. And every thrust murders it slowly.
Then again, what do they care? They don't even notice.

Ever prayed a silent one...
Begging with everything inside you...
To be wrong?


Right Honey
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