Saturday, September 19, 2009

T G I F!!!!!

Cliche...but that's definitely what I felt when I woke up this morning.

I had been looking forward to Friday since Tuesday afternoon. I kept feeling like 'Today should be Friday, shouldn't it?'...

Basically, I've had a really stressful week...Survey assignment on Tuesday afternoon, under the sun...and Lord help me, I was wearing a black top....that made it even more unbearable...

Assignments that were posted first day of school and the responsibility of finding a job for my next semester's co-op program...

My mind has been working on overtime, especially since I haven't been able to get all my textbooks. Luckily, I'm getting them tomorow but you can imagine how I felt two days ago, having 5 assignments in 6 different textbooks all due next can say that I didn't just want Friday, I needed it.

What better way to spend a Friday than with my roomie and her extremely cute male friend...I have got my eyes on him since we met (wink wink)...

So we watched 'All about Steven'.

Really cool movie. This has got to be the first movie that Sandra Bullock acted as a blonde...and boy o boy...she wasn't a very pleasant sight. The movie was great though. Fabulous acting and an unexpected end...I really enjoyed it and I'm glad I watched it.

I got one lesson from the movie too

" If you have to stalk him, then he probably isn't right for you"

I don't know why, but that really hit I needed to hear that. So, I don't know what the lesson was for but when the time comes....I think I will.

So the movie was nice...but the journey home...hmmmnn

Considering it was a Friday night, all kinds of people were out. I think my roomie and I walked past 4 different parties on one residential road...

NB-not a club road o

It was kinda scary when these group of boys seemed to be tailing us. We ran into an apartment building, where we called a cab. Unfortunately, my roomie gave the cab the wrong address and we ended up walking home anyway...not so scary the next time...

Anyways, Im bouncing prepare for another stress-filled day tomorow...but you know what, at least there was a break...So Thank God For Fridays!!!


Thursday, September 10, 2009

no I wasn't bored...

I missed you soooo much diary...ok, maybe it was just internet I missed generally.
I haven't written in ages.
I wasn't bored of blogsville. No, not that.
I was thrown back in time, when there was no such thing as internet.
Actually, not that either...but it was close.

Four days without internet and I've been complaining nonstop. What is this world turning into?
Where teenagers like me feel lost without their laptops, i-pods and phones....Lord help us.

So I finally moved into Waterloo a couple of days ago. Not so exciting right?
Here's the good part. I was moving into my own apartment...extrasuperliciously cool! Maybe not so much for some of you, but for someone that spent their whole life living with parents and being watched over by parent's friends, its a huge deal.

Well, thats kinda where the good part ends.
I moved into the house and discovered that there was no internet!
I felt like I had been thrown into dark ages...seriously...I almost went mad.
Apart from that, FROSH week just started.
In case you don't know, FROSH week is like an orientation week for freshmen.

Here, its like a military training and I'm not exaggerating....maybe a little...but still!!!
I'm in Engineering, and here in UW, it's a really huge deal.

So, we're running up and down in the sun like children, rolling in mud like its the greatest thing since shower gel,and making a fool of ourselves in front of these people called 'EDCOM'.

Apparently, they are the brightest and best of the engineering group in final year. Believe me, they are scary! They wear black shirts and military bottoms and have chains all around them. They have these extremely weird hairstyles (honestly, I haven't seen such hairdos before) and they were dark glasses.

FROSH week has been so stressful, so they decided to give us a break. A PARTY!!!!! That is so fantabulous, but guess what?

I have a bad headache, so I have to stay away. Can this week get any worse?
yes it can.
I misplaced my watcard which is my school id and my bus pass. And when I get another one, I have to pay. I hate unnecessary spending!!

So that's where I am today. No party, no watcard and a mad headache. Lord, I need you!

Saturday, September 5, 2009

Double birthdays!!!!


So two of my sweethearts have their birthdays today.

The first sweetheart is a really close friend. She reads my blog even though she doesn't actually follow it. I'll get you for that!

Anyways, we've known each other since primary school...Matter of fact, I can't even remember how we met!!

I love this chic so much and she's one friend that I'm so grateful that I have. She always understands and never judges me. She's always ready to listen. I also love the fact that she's very open with me.She never acts like I'm too 'good' to hear what's on her mind.

Yes know I'm talking about you...I love you hun. And I hope I'll always be there when you need me. Have a fabulous birthday and a great dinner. Too bad I'm going to miss it.

The second sweetheart is my ex bf. He is sooooooo adorable. We went out in junior secondary, we separated into different high schools and we met again this year and gave it a shot.

It didn't go exactly as planned but I don't regret it and I'm sure,neither does he.

Anyways, apart from being a really great bf, he was and is still a wonderful friend and I'm so glad I met him. Love you know I'm always there.

Have a great day and for goodness sake do something fun!

And another yay from me!!!
I'm finally moving today!!!!
Been waiting all summer for this...but now, I'm kinda scared...

Friday, September 4, 2009

a bother?

Remember F from my first post? Well he makes another appearance today.

He deleted me from his fb list the other day. I'm generally a nice a fault, so I called him twice before I deleted his number and made an attempt to erase him from my memory.

Just when I was a making a bit of progress, he sent me an fb invitation. Me,being....well... me, I accepted it immediately and I buzzed him up so he could tell me what the whole thing was about.

Let me describe F. He is a very miserable person. He makes jokes at the expense of other people, well me mostly. He is a very sarcastic person and doesn't hesitate to tell me what he feels about me in a not-so-nice way.

One of the things that attracted me to him was his british accent.
Gosh, I've got a very weak spot for that accent and the funny part is I can hardly make the words out over the phone. But still, I absolutely love it.

Where was I?..o yes...the chat.
So I asked him why I had been deleted and he said he didn't know. Like I'm stupid!!...Did he really expect me to believe that for some strange reason unknown to him, right after we had an argument, I couldn't acess his profile??...

Well, I didn't push it because I know he hates it when I push things too far. I let it go and tried to get things on a more neutral level.
I said something about him bringing out a totally different person in me, not so neutral I guess, and then he said he was trying to be casual with me. I took the hint and tried acting casual.
And then he complained that I was being annoying!!
wtf did he want me to do???

As always, I tried to settle things and after a while we were actually talking freely with each other and then he started using all his british slangs on me.

I don't mind slangs.Matter of fact, I use them a lot. But forgive me if I don't understand his dimwitted slangs and asked for an explanation. And can you believe what he said?

He told me to stop acting dumb!
I'm nice, so I joked about it, even though I was mad as hell.

But really,this dude, he has some serious issues. I'm trying to cheer him up....I hate chatting with miserable people,it kills my spirit... and then he sends 'fi mi sile'...thats 'leave me alone' in I say 'e pele e ma binu'.....'sorry don't be angry'

He replied and said he was serious. So I took the hint and said goodnight.

What I don't understand is whether he is being a jerk or I'm being a pest. Believe me, I don't pester people, definitely not boys. I know,from experience, that the convo goes better when the boy buzzes me.

This was the first time in weeks that I had buzzed him, he was always the one doing it. If he has a problem with me, why can't he just say it? I always give people a chance...its just how I am...but have I jumped from being nice to being a bother??

Thursday, September 3, 2009

Baby disaster!!!

So last night, I was doing what I do every night...trying to take over the world...

Ok...not really.

I was chatting with people on fb and watching that new Nick Cannon movie. 'American Son'. I think he is so hot!!..Can't understand why he chose that old bitch over me...urrghhh...

...I drift...

Yeah, I had headphones on so I didn't hear the gentle tap on my door the first time. When it came again, I wasn't sure what it was, so I turned down the volume and listened again. And then I heard it for sure, so I walked to the door and opened it.

It was my uncle. He had his younger son BC in his arms. He had to go to work and BC woke up while he was trying to sneak out quietly.

My job?....To make a two year old, hyperactive child sleep off...How the hell was I supposed to do that? I mentioned before that I'm an only child. I have no experience whatsoever with the species called 'baby'.

First off, I tried to bribe him with cookies and juice so he wouldn't wake his brother up. And then I made him watch the movie with me..

I must say I kind of felt guilty about letting him see Nick and that babe makeout. I considered covering his eyes....but then I thought 'what does he know?'...

..I stray again...

He must have gotten bored of that because he said he was tired so I closed my laptop...while all this was happening, I arranged to call this dude that I haven't spoken to in ages...and I wasn't going to let me.

I lay on the bed beside BC, waiting for him to sleep. But I guess he wasn't quite ready because he got up and went to wake his brother up.

One baby is bad...but two....that's a nightmare!!

Allow me to introduce CK...he's a four year old terror.

Let's not forget my call date. I put the Tv on for them when it became obvious that they weren't gone sleep anytime soon. And I made the call...

It felt good to flirt again,even if it wasn't with a prospective bf.

While on the phone I checked on the kids every ten minutes or so... then the call was over...and the horror began...

Make two truants go to bed.

I turned the Tv off and got out the 'spanking cane'...I wonder what kind of name that is, but that's what they call it....I don't like spanking kids but this is the only way they listen to me...see why I call them truants?

Anyways, I lay on the bed beside both of them hoping they'll sleep off.

No such thing...CK decided he was hungry so I went downstairs and got him some cereal. Ofcourse BC decided he wanted too after ten minutes. Double journey for me.

After that they complained that they were thirsty. Two cups of water coming right up.

CK was about to say somethingelse and then I put my foot down. 'Everybody go to bed!'

Then CK said 'I don't like aunty, I like mummy and daddy'....If thoughts could kill,CK would have dropped dead on the spot.

So I lay down beside both of them thinking 'finally,some peace and quiet' and then they started talking. So I asked CK to move so I could lie between both of them. Believe me, I asked nicely but he refused.

I was at my wits end so I just pulled him over to the other side and lay down...and guess what?

He started crying. I didn't even hit the boy and he was wailing as loud as

BC slept immediately I lay down,but CK continued me, I ignored him easily,a skill I didn't even realise I had.

After crying for ten minutes, he stopped and said 'aunty, I wanna blow my nose'...and that was it!..

He went to sleep right after. I think he's crying must have worn him out...

All these issues and more that I've had with these children have made me rethink my decision to have kids. Like really? it worth it?...

Im 18 now and I know I'm not getting married in the nearest future...I also know that I might change my mind about kids as I grow older. But for now,its a definite no no situation.

Wednesday, September 2, 2009


Sometimes we are ignorant of other people's feelings and what they go through just to make us happy,or give us the best. Not because they don't matter to us or because we really don't want to know. It's because we just don't think about it. It never really pops up in our minds.
My cousin, Smith, called this morning. He told me how he had gone to see my father and the amount of stress my father seemed to be going through.
It got me really thinking. If my dad had done things differently,if he had sent me somewhereelse, if he didn't believe in me and my capabilities, he wouldn't be going through this.
Honestly, before now, I never took into consideration what he must be going through to have sent me so far away from home. I never looked at things from his point of view and because of that, I'm never cautious about what I do and don't do.
After speaking to my cousin, I realised that everything I did had an effect on my dad. One way or another. Being an only child, I tend to be very selfish...I'm not saying only children are selfish, but the tendency is higher..
...i stray...
I realised, anyway, that I had to start thinking about other people and not just myself. I needed to put myself in their shoes and behave the way I would want me to behave if I were them.
Unlike my father, I don't believe in myself that much...which is kind of good because it makes me remember God....I should remember Him more often, I know that.....I hope to change real soon too...
..i stray again...
so as I step into today...I've got one prayer on my mind...
Lord, please make my daddy proud of me....

Making my dad proud of me covers everything. My relationship with God, the way I treat people including my dad, and making all his stress worthwhile and not a waste....

Tuesday, September 1, 2009

what to do,what to do? its the beginning of a new month....does mean the end of ....friendships?!

Lets call this dude 'F'. Back in high school, during my final year, I met a lot of people. F was one of those people. He was in boarding school and I was in a different day school. We talked over the phone and through the famous 'sms'. We were into each other after a while and soon he told me the big 'I love you'.

At the end of the school year, for some reason he started avoiding me. Soon I just let him be and paid attention to other guys. After all, he wasnt the only 'fish in the sea'. A year later, he sent me a friend request on fb. We started chatting all over again and then I, well we both realised, that the feelings we had weren't dead. So we started up again.

In comes 'C', my...shall I say, school daughter? Thanks to fb's promotion of ameboism, I found out that 'C' and 'F' knew each other. I must say, I was extremely shocked. I don't know why but I didn't like the fact that they knew each other. I chatted with both 'C' and 'F', separately ofcourse. After much investigation, I found out that he was probably runzing her. Not that it was my business. After all, we weren't going out....right?

Well, 'F' and I started arguing a lot, truthfully, it was my fault...I just couldn't deal with it.

Now today....well actually yesterday...
I put something up on my fb status about how I thought someone was different and it turns out he wasn't. 'F' knew I meant him. So he buzzed me immediately and we talked. The convo didn't go well and I went to bed very confused.,
I went on fb as usual, checking every once in a while to see if he was online. But he wasn't. I got sick of that and decided to stalk a little. I went to his profile. Only to discover it wasn't there!!!
Being an opptimist, I think, I assumed that he deactivated his account temporarily. I did an fb general search just to be sure. I was bummed! He was there, and it seemed nooneelse had been deleted, at leats not 'C'....

Well, now, I don't know what to do. Delete his number, luckily, I don't know it offhand/offhead...i forget which is right, send him an 'sms', or add him right back on fb..

what to do....what to do....